Big Boys Don't Cry.

Recently i fell in a great depression(now recovered,although still suffered from minor mood swings).It's because of assignment,grandma and coursemates.There are a huge load of assignments need to done.My grandma is sick.Some of my coursemates did not like me.(maybe it's just my feeling, but i felt there's something with them.)That's enough.Anymore of that would lead me to jump off the building.I have to pretend that i'm okay in class(okay,a few sighs,)while there's so much anxiety in my heart.
I didn't to make jokes because someone said that my jokes are so lame.Yeah,my jokes ARE LAME.One more thing is that i feel some kind of loneliness that i did not felt lat semester.Well,the thing that i really hope is grandma's going to get better.About peer pressure and the loads,let's see how it goes in a few months.(I can't believe that i'm still having peer pressure at the age of 2o!)
One last thing,i'm not going to sorts of things to get attention.Why do i need extra attention,especially BAD attention?It's like there's not enough(BAD)attention for me.I might have reasons or just being lazy,but certainly not going to attract more BAD attention.

This story has nothing to do with anyone,life or death.Sorry if i have offended anyone.